Emotions…”Today I will be master of my emotions.” ~ Og Mandion. Emotions are not easy. Last week my community experienced a mass shooting in one of our major industries. I was in shock, along with a whole town. We are 3700 strong. Strong in faith and resilience. We have been told the trauma many are feeling is the equivalent of September 11, 2001. Our eyes were mesmerized as we watched live coverage from the scene of the incident. We watched as many were caring for victims, caring for first responders, caring for media, caring for everyone else but themselves.
I have felt profound sadness for my community, a community that has lost her innocence. Someone commented, ” Many of us don’t even lock our doors. Why would anyone want to shoot us?” There are hard questions without easy answers. Emotions have been as varied as the colors in the rainbow. Many grieve and feel numb. Others are determined to live life without fear as they reclaim their lives.
Where do you go when your soul feels vacant? My soul felt vacant. I started looking for kindness, laughter and the lite side of life.
I started looking for places where my soul could fly again. I needed to have my imagination tickled with possibility. Imagine with me.
It has been a challenge. A challenge to feel again, to experience emotion, emotion other than tears, and sadness for a town lost to her past. Each of us will find our own path to recovery at our own pace. We are Hesston, we are strong, and we will be different…and better. I have found my equilibrium and my strength. I found the power within. The power that circles me with love and allows my spirit to soar… and I laughed.
“She is clothed with dignity and strength and she laughs without fear of the future.” Proverbs 31:25
She is the kind of person I hope to be. The kind of person who makes a town stronger.